I pull into a parking lot, cut through a spot to get
to the next lane. Yes, I am one of those
who use the parking spot short cut. Rather
than go straight across I turn right. I
realize there is a pick up truck facing me with anger and disgust, with a few choice
thoughts and words expressed toward me.
Needless to say I was uncertain what the problem was as there was plenty
of space for both of us to get through the lane (my vehicle is quite small and
economical). She made her gestures. And
I, in Puerto Rican Ghetto fashion, provide a few gestures and slurs (and I was
having such a good day). Regardless of
the incident I did park my car with a deep breath and moved on, not allowing the
incident to have anymore power over me.
Upon entering the store I picked up a basket for groceries
and begun to walk away. Suddenly I
notice the basket only has one handle.
So I return to the baskets for a new one and notice the ‘other’ road
rage driver. Worry not, for I had nothing
to say and did not want to ruin my day or be 86’ed out of El Paso's Albertsons. I proceeded to leave the area when this woman
of average height, older than myself (possibly 40’ish), slender red head begins
to say: “Excuse me miss. Ma’am, excuse
me”. I turn and reply, “I have nothing
to say”; and I begin to leave when she invades my very guarded (yet suddenly
very vulnerable) personal space. Sweat
begun to creep over my brow and my space unexpectedly overrun by this stranger,
who seconds earlier was on top of my hit list (coal in her stocking for sure).

I put my left hand on her shoulder and told her not
to worry as I was certain my behavior was equally bad, if not worse, and that
it really was unnecessary. Sad that my
brain and language skills failed me at that moment; I was taken back by her
serious sincerity (unless of course she was an employee – ha lol). I was lost in the moment of human
dignity. My story seems short and simple
but it is the farthest thing from simple or short. This woman impacted me in a very profound
way. She and the situation are an
example of how we run through our days ignorant and closed off to the world and
those around us - yet how quick we can ignite.
We allow a moment to consume us, change our demeanor, and allow our
dignity to fall away.

I could tear apart this paper with psychological
terminology and meaning, but I won’t. As
it stands I am well aware of why I in turn was so ignited and shamefully admit
that. However I realize that I too am
not beyond forgiveness, understanding, or progression – I was humbled and plan
to work on not allowing such inconsequential events break apart my own sense of
self worth and dignity, nor allow myself to devalue any moment of
experience. Ma’am, if you happen upon
this paper please know and understand that you impacted me in the most profound
ways. I am indebted to you and thank you
for kindness – your message did not go unheard or unfelt. At the very least, whoever shall stumble upon
this paper, remember that our actions impact others most!